♪ ♫....."And with all of his strength
he gave a mighty shove.
Then a miner yelled out
Then a miner yelled out
"There's a light up above!" "
---Jimmy Dean---
"There's a Light at the end of the tunnel, and it ain't a train!"
--Ann Marie--
(OK, so I couldn't find a picture of a train, but this one fits, too.)
It has been a long year for me. For over a year I have been told my husband is terminally ill. "My" life has been a roller coaster of crises, but how to share with you my perspective without whining? How about some cheese, crackers & chocolate to go with the wine? (As tempting as it is to get very drunk and stay that way, it doesn't help much. I've tried.)
My story is who I am. This blog is for my sewing business, but also about me. I alone am ANN MARIE CUSTOM SEWING. Bear with me. Perhaps you need inspiration yourself? Perhaps you are only curious? That's ok. I need to express myself. I do realize my problems are not unique. Nor am I asking for your sympathy. Being pitied is nearly unbearable. I am so weary of being the drama queen, but I cannot help myself from frequently sharing with anyone kind enough to listen.
I must say here and now, that hospice workers are some of the most wonderful people I have ever met. Love and care are the heart of those who provide hospice services. THANK YOU to Agnesian Home Hospice and the Hospice Home of Hope. Words are inadequate to express my appreciation of these beautiful people.
What is my point? you wonder.
The point is about my conscious choice to have faith. Certainly, I could resign myself to accept the inevitable outcome in a somewhat "what-EV-er!" attitude. But, it goes beyond that. I have naturally experienced the gamut of emotions throughout these many months of drama. Yet I am constantly reminded of the loving presence and care of the Lord. That is the inevitable. I cannot run from Him.
My husband is on several medications to help with his anxious emotional state, but many times he resists the effects of those medications UNTIL we pray, or read something inspirational.
What will happen "tomorrow"? I do not know. I have these blinders that only allow me to see what I need to in the moment. I can do "today". God has my tomorrows. In realistic terms (my awareness of the things I cannot dwell on for now) my future is bleak.
I have to selectively limit my availibility to work, but can still sew for you. Call to inquire. (920-238-7862)
Thanks for listening.
NOTE: I have deleted the post with directions and pictures of the studio, as we have had to move.
